“Lions and Spiders and Pride –Oh My!”

Synchronicity speaks in these over-arching interpretations of the Radio 8 Ball live show by Daenin Tejeda. All the answers to the questions asked by audience members are woven together into a singular message for the masses- an ongoing oracular message for community insight.

Artist: Amelie Julac

Short Version:

1. I WAS MEANT FOR THE STAGE 1-ROOT- (Survival-Lineage-Tenacity)
2. END OF MY DAYS 3-SOLAR- (Purpose-Life-Mission-Cause & Effect)
3. SWALLOWED BY A LION 5-THROAT- (Voice-Expression-Swallowing)
4. ONLY TERRIFIED 7-CROWN- (Knowledge-Wisdom-Understanding)
5. ALL THE OLD FOLK SONGS 7-CROWN- (Knowledge-Wisdom-Understanding)
6. TELL ME A STORY 4-HEART- (Beauty-Love-Harmonizing)
7. LITTLE SPIDER 5-THROAT- (Voice-Expression-Swallowing)
8. I DON’T WANNA BE SLOW 3-SACRAL- (Sexual-Creative-Productive)

My inner-baby voice cries out
I WAS MEANT FOR THE STAGE- it is why I exist and without it I feel I must surely face the
END OF MY DAYS and of my purpose as I know it. I must persevere and speak up even though I feel like I was
SWALLOWED BY A LION and unable to speak up for my dream. With mustering a little strength I realize I am
ONLY TERRIFIED of my own brilliance because
ALL THE OLD FOLK SONGS speak of lack and dependency and unfairness. How will I relate to others? After much consideration and avoidance I choose to be inspired by a new understanding, know my own power free from draining relationships and in my heart I now know I am ready to listen and drop my pride. My inner baby perks up and beams: please
TELL ME A STORY. And so it begins… the scary story that would change the world.

Once upon a time there was a
LITTLE SPIDER that would find and bind wily wankers in her web and every night take such delight as she would bite and bite and bite! Tearing off their self-judging frightened wanker-heads.
“But wait” cried the wanker-heads -extra loud and just for show. “I can’t be stuck in this here web – I am not ready to die, Nooooooooo!”
Said the spider to the heads, “So what if I let you go? Would you be still and present in this web Will you let your pride go?” “But I’m tired” screamed the heads “and I’m busy, on-the-go. I am afraid of who I might be if I let my pride go!” “Ok,” said the Spider “I see your point and here is mine. You have just confirmed exactly why I brought you here to dine.“
So the spider got to chomping, smiling all the way, tearing heads off one-by-one and then heard the last one say:
“I DON’T WANNA BE SLOW” and she smiled all the more -and ripped that head off extra-fast and tossed it to the floor. And so now the headless wankers were quiet and calm and still and so she drank their wanker blood until she had had her fill. All empty were the wankers drained of all their inner strife! And then something really weird came to pass: A new form of life! For these were not mere wankers their heads were still upon the floor. No these new beings were something else, yes they were something more. Emerging from headless cocoons with serene and majestic grace out of the shells of wankers -Passion-People took their place! And did they run and flee the spider? No they fanned out upon the silk and drank delicious nectar from the web like mother’s milk. They stayed and savored the present moment in stillness and in peace. They even realized their true passion before they sought release. And after brief respite and gratitude for the Spider’s loving care. The Spider whispered to them tenderly: “I knew you were in there.” THE END

Longer Version:

Song Title Position on song board (and correspondences)
1. I WAS MEANT FOR THE STAGE 1-ROOT- (Survival-Lineage-Tenacity)
2. END OF MY DAYS 3-SOLAR- (Purpose-Life-Mission-Cause & Effect)
3. SWALLOWED BY A LION 5-THROAT- (Voice-Expression-Swallowing)
4. ONLY TERRIFIED 7-CROWN- (Knowledge-Wisdom-Understanding)
5. ALL THE OLD FOLK SONGS 7-CROWN- (Knowledge-Wisdom-Understanding)
6. TELL ME A STORY 4-HEART- (Beauty-Love-Harmonizing)
7. LITTLE SPIDER 5-THROAT- (Voice-Expression-Swallowing)
8. I DON’T WANNA BE SLOW 3-SACRAL- (Sexual-Creative-Productive)
Bonus Synchronicity: This whole night is full of messages about Lions, Ego-Death and Pride. In wondering why I looked at my We’Moon’09 planner and looked at the moon cycle. The moon on June 24th 2009 had just left the sign of cancer and went into the sign of Leo (The Lion) at 9:50am pacific standard time. I will go into more details about Leo the Lion below.

Many of you were born with a strong urge to express yourselves and be the center of attention. For those of you who are this way. The deepest heart desire of the inner child pleads with you to follow your true passion by exclaiming:

I WAS MEANT FOR THE STAGE. This is on a root level a very core survival level. The need to express is like the need for air to breathe. Your stage may come in varied forms. Expression must happen just to feel alive! The story must be told and – the show must go on. If not you fear it will be the
END OF MY DAYS for your purpose. The era of struggle to be King of the Jungle with the loudest roar is ending. There is no time for Selfish Pride. Because in this era you have been

SWALLOWED BY A LION and the “Lion got swallowed by a humpback whale”. Whale is the Animal of Binah the Dark Mother and symbol of the Goddess of Understanding. In this new era we are asked to understand and integrate the soft nurturing merciful aspects of love and the severe warrior protector aspects of love to have true strength of heart and the little magical child on the stage within you needs to be both nurtured and protected. The path of Strength on the tree of life (Leo trump card) also connects the two pillars of Severity and Mercy – Love and Power. All you need is love, and– by the way– love is not just hearts and flowers it is strong and protective too! Have you been protecting your inner child with a message to share? Will you be the warrior to protect this aspect of you and nurture and encourage it when it is afraid to speak? Where do you have initiative to speak and express yourself and be supported by both nurturing softness as well as protective power? Are you ready to open your throat and give birth to your creation? To speak up about even what is scary and let go of the selfish part of thinking that that you are the one doing it? The Whale is about wisdom of the whole ocean of community as one deep understanding. The Lion can be King or Queen only if he creates a space for the voice of all and learns to let go of unnecessary pride. His/ Her voice is now spoken from inside the whale and speaks with the whale and for the whale by consent. And this emerging voice can best be opened by recognizing that you are

ONLY TERRIFIED and it is not your darkness that most scares you it is your light and connection to really knowing and understanding – that frightens you. What will you know and in knowing forever be changed? Who will you be if this changes? If you speak from this knowing place what Wonder Thunder will you unleash and to what effect on those around you? The Body is connected to the Earth the “Terra” and the Body fears dying and change that may lead to death. This is an opportunity to connect your “knowing self” to your body and let the thunder play and fear be faced. The cowardly lion learns to laugh in the face of fear. For as you connect you get to more fully understand your value, worthiness and the abundance of resources available to one who believes in oneself. And this is required because

ALL THE OLD FOLK SONGS talk about lack. And these stories have, in the past, created a culture of lack. As in: Somebody being done wrong by somebody else. These are the stories that block knowing and understanding your unique value. In a way you can only help others who believe they can help themselves. Some stories are about doubting the self. There are those who want to ride on your coat-tails or drain you for temporary relief because they do not believe in themselves enough- even though they are as capable as anyone else those who have fallen prey to the wanker state of mind of instant distraction gratification consciousness are still powerful beings and are fully capable enough to create their own opportunity and luck! Many believe it is more spiritual to be impulsive and poor- to go with the flow and never say no because “people need help”. People have been addicted to lack- being drained by others and stories of lack for a long time and they create songs to express their belief in lack and even sometimes flaunt how drained they are by others. You can benefit more when you demonstrate creativity and connection to your passion and connection to knowing. If you “pick up” someone who believes in lack they will fall as soon as you “let go” no matter how much money or love or support you give them. The real opportunity is to address and replace your own story of lack with one of worthiness and value and capability. You can say NO to “helping” others who would drain you or put you on a pedestal. See their perfection and abundance even if they do not. You can then regain enough of your own energy to fulfill yourself in your own purpose and as you fill your own cup first then you can discover what it means to really give and have it feel clean and wholesome. If you give to a person in a “need-belief-story” it can ruin the feeling of giving because they become dependent and then expect to get help. Helping others consciously who do not “need” your help or hang on your every word and have low self-esteem is of huge importance. You can give from your overflow consciously after you have attended to your highest hearts purpose. Anything less than this is a sign that you are still terrified of Being You in all your glory and knowing what you are here to do. Find out! Ignore all the old folksongs. Say No! Take time to really be certain before you commit to working with someone or going deeper in relationship. Regain your energy and direct it toward your building your own dream. Demonstrate this to others. Teach by example and do it just for you! This may or may not help them and it is irrelevant. You can believe that you are worthy enough to do this just for you! If you are unsure of your own dream then you may have been helping others as a way to distract yourself from this knowing. Make allies with strong self-sufficient individuals who pursue their true passion and dream. These are people in a belief –state that you can grow with because neither you nor they “need” anything from each other. This is a major key to creating abundance! Unfettered by draining relationships and stories you become empowered with energy and creative power and abundance! The more people that choose to become “flow positive” the more that the story of abundance can be demonstrated. Now more over-flow can be created and a Culture of Abundance can result. And yet when addressing yourself about some area where you believe strongly it is more useful just to ask with love and compassion to your inner child: Please can you

TELL ME A STORY? A story can inform you of how you operate and whether you are in lack or abundance mode. A few paraphrased lyrics pop out to me “Tell me a story of Gods and of Men” and “Water meets Earth and joins the Air.” It turns out the questioner is a wetlands ecologist! She is dealing very much with those elements.
What is the ecology of your heart? Have you integrated the elements of physical, emotional and mental harmony and attraction? On what levels are you relating openly with a bio-diversity of heart possibilities? Perhaps your stories -your beliefs (conscious or unconscious) are like species that live together in these terrains of self; earth for physical, water for emotional and air for mental.
Are all of those beliefs/creatures really indigenous to your true identity and heart ecology? How well do they relate and harmonize?
What of the first Lyric “Gods and Men?” What is a human and what is the human relationship to the Divine? Perhaps you have seen yourself as separate from the divine and disconnected from the earth and from others and your body and mind and emotions are all boxed into isolated groups. If so then perhaps you will have a very different point of view than someone who sees themselves as a part of the divine. The connection to the web of life happens through story. (I will include a short story in honor of that the Pop Oracle picked a song called “Tell me a story” and I had just spoken to a friend this exact phrase just before the show. I take it as a sign to share a story for the remaining songs. It will be included at the end and in the short version too. Also it can sometimes be great help to enlist the help of a

LITTLE SPIDER

(Kabballah notes: Spider is the animal which connects to the sun Tipheret on the tree of life which is the planet that rules Leo and the pathway/ tarot card strength sits right above it. Tiphareth also has eight paths coming off of it like the 8 legs of a spider.)

The spider represents grandmother wisdom and the connectivity of empathy and the web of life- knowing that we are all one. As you commit to your passion, synchronicity results and passion increases. Going into stillness without compromise requires letting go of pride, ego and fear.
The spider, like Kali sometimes will devour or cut off the big-headed ego which gets in the way of being present. This is the practice for those who choose to serve humanity in a big way. This is also the story of Shakti and Shiva: A Tantric story- God-Principle of Feminine and Masculine. Shakti is pure energy and life and the dance and even wears a string of severed heads as a necklace, Shiva is pure consciousness and death. When the two combine creation happens. Without Shakti, Shiva is just a corpse. This is a story of Gods, Goddesses and Humans. “Gods and Men”.

I DON’T WANNA BE SLOW. Do you resist meditation or find it difficult to be still? This is more of the ego-impatience, avoiding-true-purpose rhetoric. It can feel terribly uncomfortable to face stillness until you actually relax into it. The reason for this is often sexual shame which blocks the creative flow and creates a desire to distract or even-catch up with others who are perceived as being “better” or “more together”. Creative energy is sexual energy and creative energy is where abundance comes from. So when natural creativity or sexual energy is blocked by shame then it can be very difficult at first to be still because deep down the story has been that you believed that you were shameful and unworthy. And so those feelings of shame wait there for you to see. Until you are strong enough to just hang out with them without trying to fix anything and just witness them. Then the shame begins to evaporate and other feelings and awareness can come through. Perhaps the most important is the connection to the still small voice of the Higher-self. That part of you which actually knows you best and knows your purpose on the planet and in connecting to it you find your passion for life renewed and increased. It may be that humanity now faces this test together. Speed without stillness and connection to real guidance is just spinning your wheels. Even a slow pace with enough stillness to have excellent guidance will bring you more into the present and magnify your opportunities passion and insight.

Once again the story:

Once upon a time there was a
LITTLE SPIDER that would find and bind wily wankers in her web and every night take such delight as she would bite and bite and bite! Tearing off their self-judging frightened wanker-heads.
“But wait” cried the wanker-heads -extra loud and just for show. “I can’t be stuck in this here web – I am not ready to die, Nooooooooo!”
Said the spider to the heads, “So what if I let you go? Would you be still and present in this web Will you let your pride go?” “But I’m tired” screamed the heads “and I’m busy, on-the-go. I am afraid of who I might be if I let my pride go!” “Ok,” said the Spider “I see your point and here is mine. You have just confirmed exactly why I brought you here to dine.“
So the spider got to chomping, smiling all the way, tearing heads off one-by-one and then heard the last one say:

“I DON’T WANNA BE SLOW” and she smiled all the more -and ripped that head off extra-fast and tossed it to the floor. And so now the headless wankers were quiet and calm and still and so she drank their wanker blood until she had had her fill. All empty were the wankers drained of all their inner strife! And then something really weird came to pass: A new form of life! For these were not mere wankers their heads were still upon the floor. No these new beings were something else, yes they were something more. Emerging from headless cocoons with serene and majestic grace out of the shells of wankers -Passion-People took their place! And did they run and flee the spider? No they fanned out upon the silk and drank delicious nectar from the web like mother’s milk. They stayed and savored the present moment in stillness and in peace. They even realized their true passion before they sought release. And after brief respite and gratitude for the Spider’s loving care. The Spider whispered to them tenderly: “I knew you were in there.” THE END